无题

我的心情现在不太好。

这几天，似乎发生了很多事， 多到我自己都乱了，我的思绪一直都在飘。

为什么会有这么样的一个结果？我问了自己一遍又一遍，我还是找不到答案。聪明的你，可以给我个答案吗？

我的眼泪，不知掉了多少…..你会过来么？

假期，我没回家，我放我自己一个星期的假， 一个完全属于自己的假期，想干什么就干什么。

就多出去走走。

我每天都和朋友在一起，大家也没多说什么。

我明白，知道了又能怎样？能改变多少？

走到曾经一起走过的地方，心里难受地很痛苦。一直压抑自己的眼泪，我对我自己说过，掉什么眼泪？掉了就能回到过去，去改变什么吗？！

虽是这样想，但一边走，眼泪却一直掉下来。

我的朋友，还是默默地走在自己的身边。

哭了多少遍，我自己都忘了。但撕心裂肺地痛哭已经过了，可我就是不明白，我的眼泪依然掉下来。
我的心很酸……

这三年，我累了，累得不想再说什么了，也不想再交代什么。 

 就连我和你之间，也有太多的事还没交代清楚。
对你来说，交代就那么难吗？ 
我是你的谁？

结束了，你什么也没有说。这就是这么久以来你给我的交代？
你连让我好好想你说清楚的机会也不给。我说，算了吧......

我现在需要的是时间。
我知道，这世界，没有人是不能没有另一方的。 
放心，我会独立，这是你不曾让我依赖所培养的。
眼泪流够了，我还是会一样抬起头过回我要的生活。 
笑容终会回到我的脸上。


我始终都相信，
我,是一个坚强的女生。

结束了

是的。一切都结束了。
令我无法接受的是，你连挽留我都没有，
还一味酸溜溜地说没人关心你。
试问，你有关心过我吗？

不要忘记了今天，
谢谢你把我们的爱情亲手给埋葬了。
我累了。

If i were a boy

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man
I'd listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it's broken
So they'd think that I was sleeping alone

I'd put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she'd be faithful,
Waiting for me to come home, to come home.

It's a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake,
Think I'd forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you're just a boy
You don't understand
And you don't understand, 

How it feels to love a girl
Someday you wish you were a better man

You don't listen to her
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you're taking her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

But you're just a boy

you dun understand.

So, yeah! Finally, I had finished my exam yesterday!!! Whou!!! 

Feel like wanna have a shout after i came out from the exam hall!

You know what, i had been so busy and tension in these passed few days!!!

Slept at 3 am for almost a week! Ahhhhhhh~

This is the first time that I prepared for exam like hell. Well, I think i'll lose my scolarship this time.

Hmm...and the papers.. results... Argh, Dun care abt it for nw!!! 

Cuz I DO need SLEEP now, SERIOUSLY!!!! 

Got lots of things need to be done after the exam! :D  Especially with my friends!!!! Yeah, the outing is on!!

 Feel so relief now~ 

Besides my exam... there's something happen between you and me...

I know, I had changed, lots.

But sorry dear, i have almost lost all my patience and passion to you. Yes,it's ALL.

I cant help it out already. and what you do is just standing at there,doing nothing when you know that there's someone trying to grab your lover(i dun know she should be known as lover to you) ??!! Well, I dun get it! What the hell is wrong with you!!??

I duno what i can do after this. Somethings crazy??and i will let all of you down??

I dun know.

我只想找个肩膀好好休息，

我累了。

为什么你就在我逐渐习惯后夺取了它？

我知道，无论结局会是个怎样，总有一方将会受到伤害。

一开始，我就知道了。 

对不起，自私的人才是我。

可是为什么， 我怎么一直往沼泽地带走去？

明明是没有回头路了。

那晚你的话，让我觉得自己有点尴尬得说不出话来...有用吗？

没关系，就当是从梦里慢慢醒过来吧......

谢谢你，让我觉得自己还有那个价值去被疼爱，

也让我觉得，原来我也可以是个可爱的女生。

很久没给你自己一个笑脸了咧，

来，笑一个~
:D 

 Elaine,you gotta love yourself more.